Sick and Tired

I so dont want you back..

2006-09-02T21:12:00.000-07:00

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Am i that unpredictable?

2006-08-16T20:49:00.000-07:00

it's been so long since I last update..lol...but yeah as if there's anything interesting about it...simply just started my uni...and yeah it makesme reflect...we have all gone through so many years of education to be where we are now. But it is so not what u would like...uni is simply pack, hectic and haiz...so independent...it's just not so..yeah..so what we expect it to be....all those who agree with me...holler back aight..and yeah other department...not very good..really...my friends and i are so busy with our life...we hardly meet up..and the love thingie...DONT NEED IT AND DONT WANT IT...lol.....thats it peeps...peacin out..

Torn

2006-08-11T00:24:00.000-07:00

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Just me for now

2006-08-10T21:10:00.000-07:00

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Nice video

2006-08-08T21:41:00.000-07:00

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Just for YOu and Me..duh..

2006-08-05T09:26:00.000-07:00

Yo 4E1s..of xheng hua rocks..

2006-08-05T09:21:00.000-07:00

hey..hey..im back after so long... Yah..today's entry is solely dedicated to the guys of 4E1s of Zheng Hua sec...who have been so sweet and endearing..lol..thank you so much guys for being so cooperative..Whatever I did...it has sire up my enthusiasm to know the path that I eventually wanna go to..it makes me really wanna help the young like you to u know go to the right path....Besides...I also have had an incredible partner...Jac..who is really helpful and give me the best advise in everything that we do...thank you so much..appreciate it alot...sorry that the first 2 days photos are not available as i have totally forgotten bout it all...so yeah now..will have our stage thingie ok...cheers ppl..and keep in touch..

Love,
Kavee

nice song although i hardly understand..lol

2006-07-06T20:02:00.000-07:00

My Favourites

hey!

2006-07-04T14:39:00.000-07:00

Good morning world...my days/weeks have been pretty hectic with me coming down with stomach virus and high fever of 40 degrees..lol...weird..but yeah..as if that wasnt bad enough...my mum was also admitted to the hospital..so yeah have been jugglin to and fro between simei and bedok...lol..but yeah still holdin on and bein strong..lol...anyway today is Hij birthday...hmm...later must call her to wish her..lol...really miss the old time man..i wonder how my life will be in the uni..lol..kind of excited but yeah....lets just see shall we..lol..niway...yeah better ciao...dont wanna stay here for too long..tata

so cool...

2006-06-30T23:33:00.000-07:00

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a long while..

2006-06-30T18:20:00.000-07:00

It's been a long while since I last blogged..lol..kind of lazy..yeah laziness...that's the reason for my disappearence..thanks to all who keep bugging me to blog..lol..let's see..the past month have been an up and down month for me...with ym mum falling sick and need attention round the clock..lol..so that's what been taking up most of my time...I also went to penang..and nope..i didnt have fun...it was a horrible trip..really..haha...the only thing i actually enjoy was food..food and more food..lol..I'm getting so sick of most stuff anyway...School startin in about a mnth...and here i am..doing nothing with ym life such that when school reopen, i will have nothing to proclaim that my holiday have been worthwhile...haiz...i shall make do witht he last 1 month..will think of something fruitful to do..and yeah will tell you all about it ok...haha....as for now i wanna go and watch save the last dance....lol..need some motivation before i start my day...hehe..see ya..

nice nice

2006-06-03T09:05:00.000-07:00

I'm gone....

2006-05-31T08:19:00.000-07:00

Im this close to losin it...like really close..no wait..i already lose it..all my patience on you is gone...now..i mean it..I want you out..totally out..haha..

*Just lost all my patience on you..im sorry...*

well thought

2006-05-30T07:57:00.000-07:00

It's funny how things goes...just 2 days ago...you were madly into someone...and 2 days after that...you totally ignore them..sometime i feel like people take me for granted...you used to get mad at previous people whom you think were making use of me...well...what bout you..arnt you doing it now..??Im not angry..Im not mad..im just very upset at how things turn out...all I want was just friendship and yuo just scrap me off to one side...hmm...

*I'm not gonna say much but i hope you have thought well of your decision....good day*

I'm really not a toy...

2006-05-29T08:17:00.000-07:00

It really amuse me how yr mood can changed...I never thought that i would be so involved in your life....I've been trying so hard with all the energy I have and with all the love, care and concern that i can offer to help you out..but...instead of holding my hand and walking through it with me..you choose the other solution of going down and down..and you are sucking me down with you.....yet I'm holding on..but you know..my patience is thinning...i can't hold on much longer...I've been dealing with your emotional roler coaster for as long as I can remember....But you have never give me a chance to help..ok maybe you did...just give me a small entry where I cant squeeze through..haiz...im running out of solutions to keep you with me..I've run out of reasons to make you happy..to keep you steady...You have to figure out yourself how to get back on track or i might just walk out soon...(trust me....that's not what I want to do).. i love you dearly..but you really have to change...

PS: You really have to give me a chance to change you or I'm really leaving...

I'm not a toy..

2006-05-29T06:37:00.000-07:00

haha...I hate you..i simply hate you..hatin you so much...for causing so much confusion and pain in my life..i thought you was a big break..but hell no..you're not...

*hatin You*

sharing some facts..

2006-05-26T06:12:00.000-07:00

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>>rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a
>>rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr
>>the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the
>>frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a
>>taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is
bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but
>>the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot
>>slpeling was ipmorantt!

So cool right..yeah i know..was so excited when janani send me..lol...thank you you..for doing the sweetest thing on earth...hahaha

I'm not a toy...

2006-05-25T22:23:00.000-07:00

Once again..my dream is dashed..dashed by people who never meant what they say..dashed by people who made me believe all along that they care...but instead who have been using me to past their time or to fill up their boredom period....haha..well let's get the point straight....I'm here for people who care and who is sincere...Im not a toy..lol..ok enough of all this emotional crap..I'm happy..hahahahahaha..

Bein a full time homemake is tough all right..Have to was clothes...Cut water melon and but food for the family...I really admire all those housewives out there..trust me..if i were to get married..i will never never neglect my wife..haha..cause i have been through it...taking care of my mum and brrh..washing and drying clothes..it got me bored stiff..haha..Thanks to dhinesh and karthik for inviting me to see X-men..and to shahmen too..but yeah...so dont feel like goin out today and in the mood for lazing around so yeah thats what i;m gonna do the whole day and night today...Kudos to myself on trying to be less reliance on people..haha...but than again..isnt that what i have been doing for the past 2 days..but yeah heck..dont wanna go out..have not finish reading davinci code..i think hij is going to kill me soon..cause I'm taking so bloody long to read that book..what to do watch the movie already mah....so kind of lazy to read...hmm...

KL trip...My cuzzin has planned a KL trip on the 10th June..hmm it sounds like totally cool..but I;m contemplating whether my dad will allow me to go..i know Im 21 and all..but yeah still under the protective wing of my parent..kind of sad but yeah...will try to do something bout it...

Moo...still waiting to meet up with the 3 named assassins...may, Alfred and prem..none if you replied to my entry...im goin to start raidin yr blog and write rude comment soon...

PS: New blog skin..kind of not my style..but yeah want something different
PSS: Still trying desperately to forget you...

Crappy.com

2006-05-24T20:27:00.000-07:00

Hmm..swim swim..I didnt know swimming can be so fun..but yeah i went swimming yesterday..despite the fortune teller telling me a few days ago to be careful with any water element..lol..so proud of myself..went swimming and followin that went stuff myself in mcdonald..lol...I know I know..now some of you will say..what's the point..lol..well who cares...Life is short so must enjoy ok..haha..hmm..mum still sick..and yeah me im still trying to have a social life while taking care of mum at the same time....haha..but yeah whats life without balance.......X-men came out today so wonderin who i shall see it with...lol..it's a very special movie so must choose wisely who to watch it with..haha.

Shake it off

2006-05-23T21:02:00.000-07:00

On 22nd I went for a horrible boo birthday...trust me i never felt so miserable before in my life...was faking it all along..well what can I do...My mum is sick and alone at home and some weird ungrateful ass was shedding tears about how noone celebrate their birthday for them...thats so uncool man...I did make time buy them present and wrap it up and gave her on a saturday..haha..but yeah doesnt matter...

23rd..WENT BACK TO COLLEGE!! haha..went into staff room and I mean went into it...mrs Goon brought us in and i was so excited..first time mah...lol..had a long long chat with Mrs Goon..and she gave Jin and I a hug...was so shocked and taken aback..haha..than we talked to Mr mark tan...Ms toh, Mdm saadiah, Mrs Seth and ended with Ms Ong... Mdm saadiah was extremely busy but yeah...she take time to tell us how shocked she was with our results...yeah man..

Now what is left to do is...meet up with all my old friends...I met up with hijanah already and went to end shriveled up chicken with her for lunch..at KFC...discrimination i swear..lol...now next on the list..MAY, ALFRED AND PREM...I demand that you all have to send me red carpet and we have to go out soon....I dont care....

I Refused..

2006-05-18T21:49:00.000-07:00

I refused to fall in love with you..
I refusd to go back to where and t what i was
I refused to be weak
I refused to abandon my family
i refused to leave all my good friends..
I refused to change my ideas and thoughts for you
I refused to go back to drinking
I refused to go back to clubbing
I refused to give myself more stress throught thinking of you
I refused to fall for you again
I refused to be mentally and emotionally tortured by you..
I refused I refused I refused...

I'm mentally confused..Sittin here listenin to Kissin you by desree...u guys should..it's a nice song..haha....Im hopin to meet up with the 17th soon though..Kinda miss everyone..been so long..missin all the good times like paintin of banner and sittin down and crap during lunch..lol..hmm...missin my school life so much..

Still stuck under resolution

2006-05-12T20:31:00.000-07:00

Boo A Peek..hehe...its a bright saturday morning and all i feel like doing is to go to the beach for a good cycle..and to go swimming..yeah..its been a while since I last do something like that..waiting in anticipation can..hehe...My thai grandma call and askin me to go back to thailand..hmm...1 part of my mind is so wanting to go back but another part..is telling me that i will probably not survived there...It is gonna be so ever boring..seriously..so yeah i dont even think I want to go there..lol..we shall see..haha..Actually..thinkin bout it..I have plan my life pretty well for the upcoming months..promise myself to get a cycle and starts some healthy activity..hehe..followin that...i shall keep myself occupy with something taht will keep my mind or memories at bay and away..haha...dont wanna think bout it and dont want anythin to do with it..Im more at peace not thinkin bout it...haha...

*Watch poisedon yesterday..the movie is...ahem...ok i guess...except i wasnt in the mood...lol..thank you dhinesh for bringing me to see that ahem..ok movie..* lol..

resolution stage

2006-05-10T07:24:00.000-07:00

The days, months and years go by pretty fast for 2006. I;ve been through so much for 5 months..lol....but yeah it's a valuable experience trust me..lol...really learn alot..and it's crucial too....although i wished it didnt happen but yeah...now im enterin another stage and really want it to be ab;e to cope, pass through the past and YEAH move to the future and be happy..lol...Home situation not improvin..it is gettin worst..lol..i hope to get away be away...go stay in hostel or somtin..but yeah shall see how things goes...worst come to worst..i shall just go stay at granny's...lol...might be more peaceful and perhaps..condusive..yeah hell condusive it will be...haha...will come to a resolution soon...till than...still hangin on the line..

memories.com

2006-05-08T09:12:00.000-07:00

memories.com...haha...I am hopin to fly someday..lol

Untitled

2006-05-08T09:03:00.000-07:00

Hmm..a few day of not bloggin and here i am with my mind and fingers itching to the max..lol..it's been another weird week or so...really..so many things happen at once..weird things i mean..I have been contemplating as to how i want to live my life...but yeah till now at this present moment i realise I'm hopeless at controlling my emotions..It's like I want to leave and let go..after realising that im in a lose lose situation..but i keep convincing myself that i'm not in a lose lose situation but I am going for something greater...something beyond words..I keep telling myself that this will not last..it is superficial..It's not goin to be..but all that came back to me was..I need it more...i need it bad..i cant live without it..haha..what's the it..im not gonna say..It is within me..and that it might be the very reason why I;m havin a migraine..but yeah..I have so much ambitions..really..and i feel myself changing, evolving...but whether i will achieve what i am..I'm not sure..but theres one thing that i will never get...the love of my life..haha..sound mushy and cliche..but yeah..anyway thats all i guess...sleepy sleepy..

More pics..lol

2006-05-03T21:11:00.000-07:00

Prem, me and harj Alfred
Aloy, Chet are in the pics..find them..lol

Hij, Me,Shannalyn,May and Alfred

Jinli and I..lol

Friends...

2006-05-03T20:05:00.000-07:00

Yo..yo..firstly..i just wanna say thank you so much for the wonderful memories created yesterday night when you brought me on that DHL balloon thingie..It's like really extraordinary man...Super dooper one..So glad to finally found a friend like ya dude..seriously..so many people come and go in my life but yeah there are some friends whom i really want to mention..They deserve it for being there for me all these years and times..In fact I will list the most memorable and touching thingie about each of them as i really feel that u guys deserve it..lol...ok..here we go.. ( hey if i left anyone out that deserved to be mention pls...e-mail me..and if you have some personal comment (Hurting one that is) pls dont tag..e-mail me instead..=) of course if you have something good to say..GO ON TAG..lol..ok..ready..heh heh heh..

Jin Li; Known for the extremely loud voice and weird phrases eg: Sikina...haha,But one of the sweetest girl I've known..(She spent her off day followin me to NTU..what can i say..)..The most memorable part is the 854 where we constantly hit the dust off the seat..and she's a really good canteen pal..(She influenced me to skip geog lecture and go eat gado Gado in canteen..evil evil..)

Maygalai: Famous for her pottu..(she cant live without havin it on)One of my closest council mate..although we have our ups and downs...like killin each other and ignorin each other for weeks...but yeah the most memorable thing that i can think of..is our end of yr studyin quest between me may and hijana..where we call each other at 3am...and scream at each other to study..another one..is the hug outside council room..an unexpected one..but yeah we both needed it..so yeah..thats the sweetest and most memorable thing..

Hijanah: famous for herMoisturizer and toner..cant live without one..and her constant vain attitude..haha...hijana and I have gone through so much together..with her constantly..advising me and listenin to my problems..she almost seem like a counseling line..lol..she was also under the end of the year studying operation. The most memorable part bout this girl was the constant reminder that my dad told her she has a great smile.. (urrm...)and yes the headless chicken episode during national day..and O'yes the zillions photo-takings during the SRJCians day last yr...actually there are so many things..lol

Shawn: Known for creating the most cruel jokes..yet do all the most memorable stuff to cover it up.. (The DHL, The ordering of Teh Tarik before I Come (We frequent that place so often that the waiter probably got sick of us haha), All the advises that helps to change me for the better, The swimming, the Kungfu Hustle where we did show some matial arts skills..and still continuing to do what we do best after..lol, The jogging to science centre with my pants dropping halfway and we punching each other till we get all the bruises...the madhurai meal...on and on..haha)We've been thorugh quite alot BUT the most unforgettable thing is yr EGO DUDE..YR EGO...=)

Fadzullah: Known for the most polluted mouth on earth..(Need Bleach treatment soon), yet always give me good fashion advise haha..and a good shopping partner..(although i hate to shop). i swear he turns my hatred for shopping into something enjoyable..and yeah his pink braces is pretty unforgettable..

Alfred: Mr president..remains..one of my closest friend in council..although we fought once...but yeah we remains..close..so happy...The most memorable part is..his laughter and the private joke that we share...the TRUCK driver..lol...haha..how can i ever forget..and the constant counselling to control his temper..lol...way to go..

Dhinesh: Known for being the lamest person on earth...really...all his jokes and god knows what are so lame..but yeah somehow although we have some rough starting..we managed to pull through and remain good friends..somehow..lol..Thank you so much for always being there to listen to my problems and yeah for all yr constant late night scaring which is not very scary...the most memorable part..lol..was the movie the shutter where u scream like some cow gettin slaughtered...haha...so funny..and of course how can we forget the overhead bridge..lol..shall not elaborate as it involved me..hehe

Aloy: Hmm...another canteen buddy...but this guy can be so funny at times..he always brighten up my day during PE class..quite cool..and of course I owe him alot..He is the one who lent me the econs book..to study for the As..thanks Aloy..

Chet: Yr advises are crucial..although i disagree with most of it..but yeah thanks for trying..really..that shows that u care..and thats why u are here on the list..lol

HARJ and prem: My another buddies in council...although you guys cant live apart..but yeah...U guys did leave some memories with me.. Harj for workin with me in both committes throughout my council term..and the most memorable was the dance that we did..the college dance..lol..so funny..and ofcourse..the kemmathers..lol

Prem: Known for lickin ppl and pullin hair.lol..so bad..But yeah so proud of her..when she somehow became the 2nd ic for logist during 2nd orientation..so touched..but the most memorable part..was when she hand written down the first lit notes..just for me...was so touched and so grateful that i cant explain..lol.

marie: Although ypu are no longer a friend to me..but yeah when u were..u was someone that i would say have been with me the longest and have been carin for me for ages...i dont know why things changed...they just did..

Yeh...the list is up....and thanks you guys for always being there...ALWAYS..love u loads and hope our friendship will not end here..friends always...

2006-05-02T22:55:00.000-07:00

WELL THIS PIC..hmm..i was hysterical for a while..but yeah im ok now..lol..

Updated..

2006-05-02T22:34:00.000-07:00

Yoohoo...after a long while im bloggin again..feelin really happy today..it's like homeday for me today...woke up like 7am and has been cleanin up my room..and yeah clearin all the dirty LAUNDRY THAT I HAVE BEEN PILIN UP FOR A WHILE NOW...so yeah kind of happy..hmm..ok..i have made my choice in the uni thingie...listen up everyone..lol..I have accepted the NUS offer for Faculty of Arts and Social Science..lol..I know..I have been goin for interview with NTu and takin exam and stuff..but in the last min after consulting various people..all have asked me to go NUS...and perhaps I feel that NUS might be better....so yeah..perhaps..that will open another door of opportunity for me to improve myself emotionally and intellectually....yeah...ok..i have quit my job and now..simply lazin around at home..trying to enjoy life..shall consider goin to thailand again for a week or two before uni start..lol...hmm..thats all for the update folks..and the pic of the day sha;; be posted later ok..till than...ciao..

Forgot the pic..

2006-04-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

The faggotish me...(But im not)...retire from being one after my Jc and when i realise how bitchy gay people can be..haha...now im officially straight..hahahaha.. (jokin ofcourse)

After all this time

2006-04-26T05:34:00.000-07:00

I can't believe after all this time..people actually bother to come to my blog to read and bitch bout me in my tagboard...why? u did that in the hate mail is already more than enough..but than again..it only shows that you can't forget me..haha...admit you useless junk...Im more than happy with my life at the current moment..while you are sittin there thinkin wishin that things could have been different..so so sad...but I'm so glad to be out of yr circle..SO DAMN glad.. (this whole excerpt is dedicated to Me that tag on my board).

Now..for the usual stuff...haha..just got my pay...yippee...so so happy..but than again I must plan really well or not..i might lose track....or i might do something really bad..have decided to explore phuket and Kor Phanga...and just to show how serious I wAS..i woke up to go to library...and borrow books ok..haha...as for the companions..who cares...if i cant get anyone..will just go alone and make friends there or something..lol..this trip is crucial cause..i can go and unwind as well as visit my granny after that..lol..so excited cant wait...and o'yeah before more ppl kill me for not tellin them a happy new..Im accepted into the Sociology course at NTU...lol...congratulations to of course..kavee..haha..cant wait for you guys out there to get a reply soon...thats all for now..till than...take care people..love and miss you guys loadz...ciao...(goin for work)

Sittin, wishin, dreamin

2006-04-19T01:10:00.000-07:00

O'man..im so sick of love song..that song is just so so so so so fabulous isnt it...back to my stupid old job..so so so so so sickening...meetin weird people..and serving weird people..talkin on the ohone with weird people and mailin weird people....im doin things at random..so annoyin...it's like im livin a life..that is meaninless..that is worthless...when you said you want me in your life even when you are going in a different direction altogether???Do you realise that you are being selfish..that you are only thinkin of yourself..that you are treating me like another prize for you to bring around....we both know that you will be gone 1 day so why?? why??why even bother to stick around??and why am i so dump to agree to all your terms and conditions??is there true explanation to my feelings??I wish things were so much easier between us...i wish i was less complicated...I wish i was less fickle minded...there are million and 1 wishes...but not all of them can be fulfiled...and for that i'm still trying to leave ya and still trying to forget you...

*wishin things were that easy*

some messy pictures

2006-04-17T23:06:00.000-07:00

Desired constellation

2006-04-17T22:14:00.000-07:00

Im so in love with bjork...she really knows how to express herself and her inner thoughts and feelings...im feelin so lost right now...hahaha...confused and more confused..why cant people just want to be friends with me??why must it always be about sex and love???when I want love with other people..they dont want it...grrh...so weird..but yeah I myself is pretty complicated,,when people likes me I tend to dislike them..while those who dislike me..i will like them...crazy huh but true..anyway i really do want to go back to thailand..see my grandma and stuff...well..just talked to her..online...kinda good feelin...

learnin to let go...

2006-04-16T21:44:00.000-07:00

it fuckin hurts...it fuckin hurts..with the hate mail and with everythin that have been goin on..why cant I just let this person go??why is is so hard??dont i fuckin understand that it is not goin to last..that it is goin to hurt me further..that Im losin friendship with everyone all around me...that im losin it...what bout people who cares??why cant i just go with someone who cares???why why why fuckin why???I need to get away fast..but i feel that im too late...thats why i need my friends (true friends) to keep me sane...to keep me busy..to keep my mind off...Im hurtin...it's painful..and the fact that my mum is drunk and screamin everyday does not help at all....IT SO DOES NOT HELP........but yeah everythin is so screwed up after a single person enterin into my life...why am i so besotted i have no idea...haiz..no point in writin further..i will just repeat the same thing over and over again..i think i better leave...thanks for listenin readin and understandin...

Black black heart

2006-04-14T20:24:00.000-07:00

3 days and counting since i last met her...yeah 3 days...Don't know how i do it..but yeah..haha..been really busy with work and stuff lately...really busy..lol..my parent (dad) is particularly mad at me for treating the house like as hotel...but guess what who cares what he thinks after all..can they like create the proper environment for me to stay..hell no...so yeah it is better for me to loiter around outside than be home..lol..and my stupid job..why why is it so difficult to quit..i have no idea...been trying to quit but to no avail...Rosnah keeps callin me back and out of sympathy im workin..haha...can you believe it..i cant..I really wanna go back to thailand...really really do..but i cant...it's partly because of her..and also it is because of my mum...I hate my life but yeah Im not showin it...no way am I going to succumb to being some pathetic kid loiterin on the street blaming their bad behaviour on their family situation..thats not me..no way...after all my folks are not goin to be with me all their life...it's me who have to make choices for my own well being and yeah for my own future....so ppl...NEVER NEVER blame your family for what you are and for who you are becoming..cause at the end of the day..you have choices and it's up to you to choose them...and make the right choice...ciao..

2006-03-30T02:36:00.000-08:00

Alterin' every plans

2006-03-30T02:13:00.000-08:00

Today is the 30th....Pay day...but how much did i like get???Yeah man..a miserable $410...so pathetic lah...feel like dying..what am i going to do with that amount of money...haha..runaway again..to neverland..haha...have been really tired lately..and thinking(reflectin) the purpose as to why people get married..lol..yeah why?I feel that indian do have a weird purpose of gettin married...well sorry guys...but hey i;m half Indian too...Indians generally get married to carry on their generations line and well because they don't want to die alone?? weird eh..i FEEL that that is a wrong reason to be gettin married..but yeah it is always up to the individual..like i say my thoughts is what i feel and it does not necessary reflects other thoughts and feelins..lol..Well enough bout indian and marriage...Im so sick of my vacation..and how i wished im like schoolin now...haha..see another weird theory...anyway I need another holiday..i really do need it..haha..and where do I suggest myself of going...Bali or perhaps..pattaya...I dont know..i really want to go to somewhere exotic...not just another Jb or malacca and stuff...lol..and yeah after Susie..arrgh...lonely to the max.. but yeah cant afford another pet...not now...not when i know that I will somehow neglect it...I really want a dog *whines*.....but yeah its alright i guess..that will have to wait..really...haha...anyway to those poepl who have been visitin..thank you so much for visitin..really appreciate it...lol

Bein left on the shelf

2006-03-21T23:13:00.000-08:00

Yeah Im goin to be 21 in like what 3 days and Ims till left on the shelf..people who acts like they are interested in me seem to only wants to get into my pants...and hell did i let them..NO WAY!Besides the screwy chalet that I did last week..there will not be anymore celebration....Maybe there's something with me and celebration..we are just not meant to be together...besides my priority are starting to change..now all i wanna do is to go to uni and yeah just go to uni...hopefully by than I can forget my past..all my friends that have led me astray...well I dont have to elaborate isnt it..the friends that I have been hangin out with often are those that are leadin me astray...Hmm...for some reason I never really hang out with people who are good influence..I wonder why??guess people will never appreciate good things until they actually lose them..haha...but things are gonna change now I promise..*crossin finger*hmm..yep..i guess thats it for now...just cant think of what more to write..tired...and o'yeah..Im workin tonight..Borin !!

The disaster

2006-03-19T17:46:00.000-08:00

There we goes again..the major disaster of the year..kavee's Pre Birthday celebration...yup..thats right..with the same group of people who create a similar chaos a few years back...want me to tell you???yeah i will but believe me as i'm typing this....my hand is tremblin with anger AND my heart is all quiverin with pain...I will tell you in sequence...first we went late for the chalet as one of us...forgot to bring the cake and she had to go back to take the cake..than...we were all havin fun till my date of 3 months decide to come for the chalet...so i went to fetch her...and we were talkin and walkin at the beach for a while...when we came back...3 of the friends were all drunk with the vodka that I brought with me for the night...YES! they finished the whole bottle....after which..we all switch to E-33 and bacadi instead..not forgettin by than 3 more of the friends already came..we started dancing and being wild...soon...everyone was partially drunk and i decide to go to the loo for a pee...when i came out...MY FRIENDS- 2 of them a gal and a guy..were on THE BED WITH MY DATE KISSING AND MAKING OUT!!! The rest of us gasped in horror and yeah all the rest of us were no longer drunk..i couldnt bear the sight and thank god one of the friend saw the pain written all over my face and decide to drag me out...I am not ashamed to thank this friend..his name is Varun!! Thanks varun...we both went out of the chalet leaving the 3 cheapos on the bed..the rest of the friend told me they stayed on for a while and went to sit by the beach....however faizal managed to tell me that when he was coming out..the 3 of them were already getting it on with their shirts off....They did have 3somes at the chalet WITH THE BIRTHDAY BOY'S DATE!!!!!!hahaha...my bestfriend have sex with my date..so cool eh....when i confront my friend the next day..all they can say is...It is no big deal kavee..people do it all the time these days...it makes me wanna punch their face but yeah I didnt..im such a coward gosh...but yeah..anyway that doesnt mean I forgive them...Im so pissed i dont wanna see them ever again...EVER !!!!!!!!! So people...If you are readin this...let me just tell you...NEVER INTRODUCE YOUR lover to your friends..NEVER......

Lettin Go...

2006-02-24T08:12:00.000-08:00

Once again..Im feelin this way..feelin totally lost...totally helpless..sittin down on my brokeass bein totally retarded and waitin on for sympathy from some unknown strangers...Perhaps..it's because of the situation at home plus the releasin of the results...It just got me all so worked up...I hope I can just leave....go somewhere...be alone...whats more....I seem to be totally sucky in the matter of the heart department...what's wrong with me......I have always been fallin for the wrong people..and yeah I am letting history repeat itself...I just need to let go..breathe..be happy...and yeah...CHILL

Candle in the wind

2005-12-13T23:41:00.000-08:00

8 years...8 years that Susie has been with me..sticking by me...everyday and night he never failed to greet me...those ears...those eyes...and all the time that we spent together playing....All those are now just memories....I will never forget...13/12/05..in the wee hours...came back from work...I saw him lying by his side..eyes open...no movement....His death didnt hit me till after I bury him...yeah..I didnt even dare to touch him..he was so stiff...so stiff...It was like a part of me that is being buried...The impact of his death didnt hit me till I came home took my shower and yeah till i sat there on my bed thinking.... thinking....The best part of all this is....when I saw him in the cage...gone...James Blunt..""Goodbye my Lover "was playing...and it was sad..sad...now I can't even listen to the song without thinking about Susie....I didnt even like touch him the night before he died...I'm sorry i took you for granted....I really did...Just because you are always there for the past 8 years....I only care for you when I want or when I felt like it..now...I iwsh I could turn back time....I wish I could treat you better..I wish I could be a better owner..a better friend to you...but yeah there's no point talking about it now isnt it....

Flashback:

Once i was having a major fight with my folks..and yeah i just brought Susie down for a walk...upon seeing me all sad and depressed...he hop onto my lap and refused to get down..haha...a rabbit of a kind eh..but yeah...there's this bond..this connection between both of us...I don't know if it happens with every pet owner and their pets but yeah..to me there is this thing...where no matter where you go..u will miss your pet...its like yr closest friend or best..yr sibling..lolz..I miss Susie...but yeah....my folks told me he has gone to a better place now...hopefully he will remember me though....lolz....

enough sleep??

2005-12-11T18:47:00.000-08:00

Bored...shall I repeat it..BORED...lolz..so dont know what to do can...my ear also hurting..lolz...ouch! Kavee seem to be unable to get himself trouble free..The thailand trip.....BIG QUESTION??? my parent are like this willow tree swaying in the wind thingie...they seem uncertain....if they are not going to go..who cares..once I get my pay I will ciao I sweAR..aint gonna sit here looking at my green wall...too boring for me...atleast one consolation is....I will be able to finisg the survivor finale before I go....hehe...how bout that...Im such a reality freak i swear.....lolz..and like what jin say....depressed...forever depressed one...too bad cant help it..s'pore is gettin borin and I'm itchin for some excitement..lolz...so yeah...arrgh got an e-mail from a close friend..miss him load can....arrgh..but yet he's in california and im here in s'pore....so far...haiz..nvm..step by step...haha

BKK here i come....

2005-12-08T02:29:00.000-08:00

its been long yeah..since i update the blog...but yeah....been busy lately..with work and yeah trying to juggle everything at once...I'm like totally planning for a holiday on the 20th dec..thats why im working like 6 days a week...and although I hate my job totally..but holding on..cause...I am too lazy to get a job and don't really know what to do at home...hahah....so yeah 7-11 or not..I dont care..as long AS it pays....hahah....20th dec...counting down...another 12 days might not be that tough isnt it...lolz..holdin on....

Being in a hellhole...

2005-11-27T10:15:00.000-08:00

Hi there to the dead....
Yeah to all the deads....what can i say....life has been split apart...by everything and anything....all at once...4 days in a row...yeah 4 days in a row...people who don't understand....can say all kind of things...or let me correct myself...people who pretend to care but don't can say all kind of things....lolz...why??cause they have yet to experience the actual thing...it's not easy being here...although some of you might say, everyone have problems....I do agre...but one thing...try..try living in this hellhole.....those seeking misery...satisfaction guaranteed...mwahaha..If you ask me..I will trade life with you anytime...ANYTIME.....So hellhole anyone???

me myself and I

2005-11-26T21:30:00.000-08:00

who would ever thought that my life would simply suck after the As...hahaha....yeah i spent all my time............ haiz...I so wanna go back to BKK but i cant even go back....sad eh....my parent simply doesnt want to send me back....now hows that....theay are afraid i will elope or something..lolz...with who?I have no idea....anyway yeah....I hope to get a job soon..and get away from this house as far aspossible..lolz...that will be a good wish this christmas isnt it...lolz

may and I..exclusive pictures...

2005-11-03T20:45:00.000-08:00

so sad but true....yeah...

2005-10-28T08:35:00.000-07:00

what the heck..is people getting so frenzy over slim guys???what's wrong with someone being slightly plump (like me).....I see no wrong can.....it's the personality that counts can....anyway studying studying studying...quite scary...cause i realise that all my subjects that i'm taking are like...flexible..and your point of view kind of subject...lolx...and YOU NEED TO HAVE GOOD ENGLISH...as you all can see my english is like the down the dump kind of english..hahah...anyway yeah alright..im gonna go now...lazy lazy..see ya

school

2005-10-24T10:23:00.000-07:00

Hallo there,
Yeah yeah....been online evryday but didnt update..too lazy..anyway....finally am updatin..been lazy lately..and have been goin back to school nearly everyday.....and realise that i should not go back to school at all.....it will only further demoralise me..yeah....so im so not gonna go school anymore..and it will also result in lost of momentum..yeah...

hehe hold on...

2005-10-22T18:10:00.000-07:00

ok..may im updatin...hahahahahaahahahahahahah....im tired..brain dead exhausted.....whatever.....hahahaha..but yeah must hang on ok...hehehehe...

scary...

2005-10-22T17:54:00.000-07:00

Hey hey...
Have been listening to this sad song by Daniel Powter...nice can...bad day....the video is also very very sweet....hahahaha....we all should use that song as our motivation.....yeah we all should...and something scary have been happening lately.....well when I was studying for my O level...i used to have this person goin fpr me....and in between my geog paper I actually yeah dated the person...hahahahah...it didnt last ofcourse...but now during A level...it's back...yeah scary eh...like i dont know..anyway 16 more days yeah and i;m like nowhere can..haiz...

weird day

2005-10-18T17:26:00.000-07:00

I'm tired I swear..and I like this pic..It's the shh and me.....yeah it's our secret code...the shh thing..anyway the 2a4 pic is so small....cannot get can...even if take also cannot see my face...so rather dont....anyway 7 hrs of econs today..can die can...brain deadness..and have been practisin for econs like mad...and till now still only get like 18 out of 30 for my MCQ..extreme madness....and extreme sadness....sad sad....hoo hoo....anyway yeah im tired..and needed a break badly....Still holding on...and will hold on as long as I can...I can do it..mwahaha...Blah....cant find the song I want to hear.....arrgh...and O'yeah shehnaz...what I meant is yeah to be honest you look good can.....so yeah hope you dont take it the wrong way...besides you being half inidan and half chinese..well u know what I mean..the Boink Boink Thing.....hehe heh heh...anyway yeah lazy to continue bloggin shall peace out now...blah....

PS: A friend just told me that I gain weight like alot....arrgh..arrgh...and I just ate this cheese thingie nice can....

pics....

2005-10-14T17:20:00.000-07:00

Nice can....

2005-10-14T01:24:00.000-07:00

haiz...
So tired can...went for econs consultation today and you know what.....I didnt know that ther are so many things that I don;t know..I feel so depressed right now...Dont wanna study econs no more..rather go study other things..more fun I think..lolz...anyway i just like strole some pic from Jinli hahaha...from Ringo so cool can..I swear....I never enjoyed myself so much in my life....I got like $70 worth of voucher yest....will go on a shopping trip after As...lolz...and yeah this gift for the best readin class or somtin like that..so cool can.....the best thing is..they didnt take out the price tag...lolz...and it costs...$10.90.....lolz..so expensive can..and yeah I owe a big thank you to Hij.....THANK YOU SO MUCH.......

and zaiton too.......Really appreciate it...alot...thank you so so so so much.....and ofcourse...those who took photo with me...Jixiang, Jodie,Priscilla, Catherine..and millions others...lolz...thanky ou...hey not forgetting:

Jinli for that lovely powerpoint...Shehnaz,,,for the sweet note, Cheryl, Farah....yeah thank you so much..and Mrs Seth for the great long book by George Eliot...thank you so much......love u guys loads..anyway I got some pic that Jinli took so cool...will share woth you all...NOW...

Grad day tomorrow...

2005-10-12T14:36:00.000-07:00

lolz....last school day today.....so so sad..but yeah...my Jc years ended like tomorrow..graduation day......will 2A04 cry.....hahahaha......stay tune ok..will update you..anyway today was results day...yeh!!!!!and urrm..i didnt do that well as usual...but was just thrill...haha....went for econs class...and yeah slack with Jin for a while and get my butt home..pretty tired but yeah....for a good cause....Me aloy and chet had a good laugh over the Mr okay..today in the mornin..it;s like every sentence he made end with ok..ok..ok...lolz....it's almost like good old days again...*ALMOST*....but yeah too bad!!!anyway tired really...PR too much in school..lolz....adios people..happy studying...

2005-10-10T21:09:00.000-07:00

Don't you think Don't you think Don't you think that maybe it's time Don't you think Don't you think Don't you think that maybe it's time Time you started thinking There are more important things Than making sure your watch looks just right Your second hand opinions Don't make you look any smarter You're not affected by the truth Unless it's on your doorstep Deodorise your paradise No point in getting crazy Yes, its time Time you started thinking Time you started thinking Time you started thinking Time you started thinking.....

Yes peeps...back to reality can....Jc life is about to end and yeah although I'm really excited about the journey ahead but yeah...wonder how my life will be without seeing your lame faces in the morning and yeah...considerin i'm the best looking one of the lot..haiz...anyway 17th was definitely fun..we laughed, we cried.... ( always to a particular person..u know who u are yah...) and yeah we fought, we cursed, we hug.....so fun right..but yeah every poeces of memories will stay within me... bern and her 24 hrs on the sofa...may and her 24 hrs talking about yesteryears...Harj and her urrm...kemadas....ok..let me do it in the hiercahy order ok....

Alfred: Moody*2
Kavee: Cute and handsome...
Mark: Hmmph...Perfectionist
Najuma: Where??
Heeru: I'm stress!!!!!!!
Marcus: Where again?

Welfare:

May: That time, yesterday,last year, when i was young
Harjinder: Shut up! Kermadas...
Stanley: I want to go Innova
Ming Han: Ciaobu!!!!
Chui Ting: I love pink!
Sony: urrm...anyone gossipin about me??wait heeru hear...shh!!
Yian Pin: Nobody tell me....
PR:
Premani: Yes Kavee....hehehehehe...
Bernadine: *knock knock* interrupting cow..moo!
Bianca: Clubbing....I lost my voice..
Kelvin: Aiyah..I'm tired...*BAPOK*
Dixie: My mum ask me to go home..Got letter see...

See I know everyone in and out can...hahahahahahah....now for 2 some people of 2a04s

Jinli: Sikina....!!!!!!!
Shehnaz: Tired...lazy...Scared
Farah: Let GO!
Cheryl: Can!!!
Ama: Huh???

Finally: heh heh heh....our favourite person..... **beams**

Teachers:

Ms Ong: May and I still hunting for your suitor
Ms Lim: urrm....I'm studying ok...hehe
Mr singh: Thai culture....

Fianally: To hijanah....the most HL person ever....wait the most vain person ever....

MY TONER...KAVEE U CAN DO IT...!!!!

Thanks people.....love u guys loads.....

NEW PHONE...

2005-10-08T12:37:00.000-07:00

yeh...new phone....6101...I simply love my new phone and my grandma..they are the best...hahahah....yeh!!! I wish i could stay on and on in woodlands...I simply love that place..but yeah....I cant...mum wouldnt let me....haiz,...family politics...anyway Im so sick of studying..so depressed...My cousin got like BDD for his prelim but me...me...I got CEO which they promise to push up to an E.....so it will be CEE.....what a disgustin grade...hahahaha....wait a min i thought i told u guys this...haiz..nevermind....anyway sick of staying home..shall go do something nice....lolz....have a great day people...

new phone..

2005-10-07T19:23:00.000-07:00

I so want a new phone...so sick of the current one..cannot take photo..sad sad...considerin i love my fat face so much....MAY IS GETTIN AN AWARD..so proud of her....kudos to may...and me for bein such a great friend...mwahhaha...tell u all a secret..without me right she will not achieve this far.....u better agree or may i will reveal yr long hidden secret about yr love life...heh heh heh....anyway new phone new phone new phone....yeah!!!!!

simply me.....

2005-10-06T16:12:00.000-07:00

Eekz..eekz...I have gotten all my prelim results...what can i say....what can i say...well..it is true my econs and Gp improve but LIT LIT...gosh with me bein so emotional and all....yeah yeah...how can i get an E yea E E for elephant...thats so eekz....hmmph...I did somthing weird today..I leak out a family thingie to Jin and shehnaz....arrgh....but than yeah...it doesnt matter anymore....hahah...anyway mum going BKK again on 12 oct...what a weird timing but yeah...the best part is..she is going alone..and I;m really worried but than again...I simply cant be so worried right now..there is 'A" level comin up that is worth worrying....not some mummy-goin- Bangkok-trip....hahah...anyway yeah....1 more month left before...urrm...yeah before "As"..scary and my GP and econs are still the 2 biggest worry..my lit i dont know have been hovering between Es and Ds...I really reallyu hopes to get atleast a C for the As,......we shall see..heh heh heh....yeah thats all....signin off.....urrm..simply me...

17th Sc...READ!!!!!!

2005-10-05T17:04:00.000-07:00

Dear 17th Sc,
I'm proud to bring you this wondeful news....All of us... will be getting service award or something during the graduation day 05 next week...SO DO PLEASE TURN UP and please pass this message around.....THANK YOU AND HAVE A DOODER DOODER DOOD DAY.....DADADADADA...DEE DA!

Darlin I dont have a hope for you right now..

2005-10-04T18:11:00.000-07:00

depr4ess depress depress...that's all I can say...got back my paper 8 today C and A....Dont even bother asking.......Seriously..arrgh,,,im goin down babe..seriosuly goin down..hahaha...Have along long talk with Mr inder today....with Jinli and yeah discovered alot of interesting facts about yeah Sr and life of a teacher...cool can...and yeah unexpected sms from someone who once upon a time not willing to wait for me to finish A level...yeah asked me out for a movie ON A FREAKIN TUESDAY...dont you know that I do have a life and have school tomorrow...hahah...first cant wait..now want me to date again..what the hell no way..haha..and shehnaz..Im serious bout my theory..try ignorin them till they are all gone..u will feel wonderful...heh heh heh...Hey...got back Gp result today too....arrgh my language..which idiot will ever get 6 out of 20 for their language..who who who....unbelievable can....6 yeAH.... i got like exp all over my paper...arrgh...arrgh..goin crazy crazy crazy....Never was there a boy so mightily betrayed......hahahah...and yeah i still wanna go Pulau Ubin....

hi here

2005-10-02T14:40:00.000-07:00

Hey hey...
How har hoo....hahaha..Hi have heen husing his hccent her hole hay...han hern han hin hi hus ho hihahahed...hahahah.....H'im hinking hof husing her m hccent hohorrhor.ho hook hout hor hit hahahaha...have ha hice hay...

See you when you're 40...

2005-10-01T00:01:00.000-07:00

Today class was extremely boring..i swear that i'm so gonna kill may..mwahaha...but anyway i got this starhub voucher.....to upgrade my phone...BUT...my folk forget to pay my bill....was so horrified...hahah...anyway school had really been hectic...kind of tired..and yeah everyone is seem to be working their ass out for their A level..except me....haiz..yeah so sad but true..i need to tighten my belt can.//and study harder..yeah study harder..and be more i don;t know...anyway yea...just came online today to tell how miserable i am right now..lolz...

CHEAP THRILL =)

2005-09-29T20:18:00.000-07:00

Haha..today was a weird day..seriously..i was rambling nonsense like practically the whole day..with the ants story and the gay story and the monkey story...hahah....so fun can..cant believe both jin and shehnaz fall for the trick like 3 times...so nice..anyway, My throat hurts..like really bad...and yeah got scolded again and again...from different teaCHERS...not because of my results but guess what...for being so lame..hahaha CHEAP THRILL!!!!!Mrs seth scold me for paging for her 9 times..and Mr mark Tan say i was irritating for constantly using cheap thrill....not only me ofcourse..it's Jinli too!!!! I ROLL MY EYES 10 TIMES CAN....anyway, yeah I have come to terms with my results...have to isnt it...no point of brooding over it...wait!! I havnt even get back all my results yet...but I definitely know that i failed my GP and my econs...so yeah and Lit too...and geog paper 1...wait! thats like practically everything..haiz...total failure can....hahaha...and today I went home in peace..didnt do that like in months..trust me...the feeling is good...hahaah...anyway came home..try to do a lil of utopian lit before that man leave sad sad....he was my role model...yes WAS...with his ability to slack and still people still likes him...thats magical can.... than the memory like comin back of teachers' day 04, 1st orientation 05 and yeah the thai culture thing...however I'm not that emotional so yeah no tears to shed ok...I'm not you know who.....kneel at the bus stop being hypocraite...right may right??? heh heh heh....wait..is that correct spelling??ahhh...whatever....

Anyway prem and harj definitely done a great job in doing that Telescreen thing...BUT..... there was one eye that got smeared..sad can....yeah yeah..must tell you all...for the first time in my life..i was artistic....yes I did this really nice card for mr singh....I'm so nice can....with photos everything..so yeah getting an A for art in primary 3 wasnt that bad after all...mwahahah...anyway yeah have been really tired lately wonder why....and I learn something new....eating sour plum makes you loss your memory...so people...do not eat sour plum..bad for health....hahah...anyway yeah signin out for now...

*still wanna go pulau ubin*

My adventure

2005-09-28T06:10:00.000-07:00

Spider man spider man....hahah..I just like discover my real identity...must keep it a secret ok...I wanna be spiderman...yeah...reason being..I wanna climb walls...lolz..so fun can...and yeah yeah..I wanna be free and swing from lampost to lampost...and marry a beautiful lady like Mary Jane...yet..haiz...now I;m just some love sick ass trying to ensure that I will get my cute ass into uni..lolz..(just trying to be egoistic ok).... the pic is in my previous entry..the display pic that is...

Anyway chikha or im sorry i cant pronounce your name..was chattin with me cause she don't get my msn display pic..so I was trying to explain to her..so hilarious can...so slow..anyway here is how the conversation goes..I have copy and paste it over...the long long nick is her's///while the I WANT TO BE SPIDER MAN..SPIDEY IS MINE...lolz... the story started from me...telling her that i got what it takes to become spiderman except the lack of super power....hahahahah...

hahah...i got the looks..and the attitude..i just need the super power can..lolz..
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
see
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
the look..
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
haha
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
yeah yeah..looks
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
i beg to differ man
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
youre tons better lookin than toby maguire
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
heeee
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
there you go..a boost to your ego
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
just wat you needed
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
YES yes!!! for once someone is right...i will make u spider woman ok..once i became spiderman that is...
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
no thanks! im already a goddess
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
lol
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
yups.
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
everyone thinks tat
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
LOL
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
OMG
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
so mean
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
ok..ok..goddess
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
:'(
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
no! go away
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
i dont like you!
soooooooo meaeeeaaaannn
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
bigsad
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
my face so cute yet u dont like me..sad sad
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
({)
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
no! *sulks in the corner*
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
(cry)
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
now tats wat i call a unique smiley
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
urrm...ok..
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
haha
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
ok...pls explain to me why tat disp pic is supposed to be spider man...? i dont get it..?
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
hmmph..look at the reflection in the eye
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
dont you see spiderman?
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
look properly in the goggle..spec watever
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
ok ok!
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
hahahahaahah
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
slow can!
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
tat white thing is his eye!
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
im so gonna blog it
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
urrm..no below it..
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
blog whta?
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
yeah
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
i know
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
u being slow..
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
hahaha
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
8-
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
tats just meeeeeeeeaaaannnnn! i havent looked at sipey man since forever
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
lol
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
oh no
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
sipey man?
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
sipey man..lolz
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. says:
i meant to say spidey man
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
funny lah you..
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
lolz..
I wanna be spiderman...spidey says:
sipey man will soon be in cinema near you

I wanna be spiderman

2005-09-27T00:15:00.000-07:00

going going....??

2005-09-27T00:11:00.000-07:00

Hahaha...Im learning new lessons..on how to stop feeling depressed after you get your results...but yeah even this I am not managing very well..forget it....hahaha.....Sometime it makes me ponder whether I have chosen the right choice...yeah with so many limitations and so many door close on you...I wonder if i have made the right choice..... haiz...i Know it's suicidal to even think about it now but yeah...can;t help it...Im just depressed...sometime it makes me think..why bother...why really bother to stay up till late nights....why bother to drink like million cups of coffee...why bother to find mean and ways of getting out of your house away from your naggy and irritating parent...why bother taking lodging in your relative house that you really hate...why why why????but than again thinking bout it...after so many motnhs of trying..am i just gonna end here....but than again..I think I know the reason for me feelin like this...this is why:

Scenario: In class....getting back econs mcq results...

Reason: " I want these people to come see me everyday as i'm sure you all must atleast get an E...these people are...KAVEE....and a few people.." ....while the rest of you i want you to atleast get a C.....

In conclusion... i'm worth an E!!!yeah thats how much I'm worth....hahaha....forget it can....seriously..everyone told me to move on...but yeah i'm trying..with little moral support.....haha...ey..i saw this 2 cool pics so nice can!!! wait i scan in...

pict pict..kavee is cute!!

2005-09-25T23:20:00.000-07:00

Partner in crime can...lame one that is......

My love susie......hahahahahahahahahahahah happy people???

Another day in paradise

2005-09-25T07:47:00.000-07:00

yeah...as i sat there trying to understand Silas Marner today, i also did some reflection and self discovery....what Hij say is kind of true...why am i doing like self destruction...yeah..so...I have come to realise that people around me are not that bad and there are some out there who actually care about me...of these...definitely Hij and May deseve mention and yeah...my mum too (only when they make sense)....O'yeah..susie..for always being ever ready to dirty up his cage so that i have to clean it like million times each day.... really appreciate it...anyway yeah as i was telling...after many fail attempt of trying to have a relationship...forget it....hahaha....A level and susie come first...anyway im trying to scan in susie's pic..and hope it will turn out fine....hmmph...i guess thats all for now..too lazy to update..lolz..

yeah!!!

2005-09-24T05:05:00.001-07:00

hahaha..im pissed drunk right now..and its 5 am...and im updatin my blog..u know why...cause yeah wanna prove to my friend that i can do it...even when im pissed drunk..and yeah im pssed drunk....hahaha..see....well what can i do??my friend got a weird boyfriend..and i ended giving in to her..to make her happy..yeh marie hear it.....i stay back to make you happy...and to ensure that yeah..so be happy and stop saying that i dont care for you cause i do...(to a certain extent)..but i care for myself more..anyway i hate aaaron....yeah i hate him...so i dont know..if i were you..i woukld stop datin him cause he looked totally crap..and yeah i feel fuckin guilty right now..cause i told my folks im goin to be pen and yeah go9t back at 4.30am..pissed drunk and cookin rice~!!!!! depressed can!!!!

Anyway to that person who try to get me back..all i can say is....FUCK OFF...just get yr ass over to brian....i dont give it a damn....I'm so glad i realise it like 6 weeks before A level so i can stop all the distraction before you can actually hurt me further and yeah...i drank long island without you....so????? I happy can!!I wanna get drunk can!!! I didnt kiss you so??? I have a crush on your best friend so????Fuck it I dont give it a damn,....I dont need you in my life...yeah....I dont need you..so just fuck off....sorry guys...pissed drunk and still updatin blog..and yeah that marion raven song is playin in my earphine can..that "break yuo song"..so shiok can....mwaahahahahahah....enjoy yr sleep..my saturday was ruined just to let you guys know..all because of this ass...yeah this ass...and aaron and...hmmph..yeah i drank this long island 10% nd this weird chadonneh at 13.5% + E-33 at 9.5%......shiok can..yet can cook ruce and update blog...I love myself...ciao...

2005-09-24T05:05:00.000-07:00

wonderful day

2005-09-23T12:15:00.000-07:00

whoa..whoa...
After a long long time...Im so glad I went out and actually have fun...yea and i mean real fun.... and thank god it wasnt clubbing...clubbing is no longer fun for me...I'm moving on..to something like...going to take stupid neo print and playing pool on weekend..hahaha..it is so much fun....much better than anythingelse that is...hahaha..yest was like an easy day of just going out chillin...and yeah i discovered that...the ice kachang at bugis hawker is really good..and it costs only $1.....shall go again next time hahahaha...and yeah the pool at peace centre or was it paradiz...watever...is really really good...i enjoy it so much...ofocurse after that...i came back home..only to be asked out by another friend...mwahahah..so went to reservoir...and sat there for like 2 hours...doing nothing...so nice can..after that...hmmph..yeah came home..and was so tired that i slept...hahahahahahahah...so happy...but than again...there is 1 regret....I MISS SURVIVOR....damn....so mad...and yeah yeah...

I did something good yest....I helped a blindman in bedok interchange....yeas..i did....I was walkin to my bus-stand when i heard this man like shoutin for help and beatin aimlessly with his stick..and people simply walk past or just look on....so silly!!!!yea so me bein good and nice....help him....and yeah...he asked me to bring him to the hawker centre...and i did...and asked me to buy him chinese tea which cost like $0.60...see i did a good deed....yest...are u guys proud of me..hahaha...anyway yeah..no important gossip today..but i did upload the latest pic onto friendster..so yeah if wanna see..can go friendster ok...see ya!!!!mwakz...

O'depressed

2005-09-19T20:08:00.000-07:00

CUT MY LIFE INTO PIECES...THIS IS MY LAST RESORT...to die...yeah everyone have been telling me that the paper was do-able...BUT TO ME it wasnt.....have no idea why....haiz...thank god it's prelim....I definitely learn alot from all the major screw up that I have been doing...gosh...so sick of it all....and yeah yeah just sick sick and sick...AND SICK...

angry2

2005-09-17T23:14:00.000-07:00

i have been updatin...my blog instruction is in chinese and i dont understand so have been deleting my entries..so mad......

angry!!

2005-09-15T00:03:00.000-07:00

i wrote an entry just now..but it's gone now!!!! dont know where...nvm..shall write again later...it was long one can...damn!

haiz..

2005-09-13T20:01:00.000-07:00

Im fuckin depressed...you feel that the steam is kinda off now....why isnt it you that suggest that we take it slow...isnt it you that suggest all the stuff there is to suggest so..how come suddenly..you turn on me and say... that you are sick of making all the effort???well guess what...I am taking My As this year and have no time for your crap...if you feel that I am not making any effort in making our relationship work out....forget it..so be it....leave it...whatever... but surprisingly..i am so hurt...by what you say.....You say i'm playing hard to get..haiz...I AM PLAYING HARD TO GET...but dont you ever forget..before that hateful e-mail.....who was the one who initiate every actions and outing???wasnt it me??? than now..just a few weeks into you having to coax me to go out and all....you can't handle it...haiz....by the way..why is it today of all days???? damn!!!

mwahaha...bitter sweet symphony

2005-09-12T13:06:00.000-07:00

This entry is gonna be an angry one...so yeah pls dont read if you have a weak heart...later heart attack...noone save you can....ok..here we go....

BIT*H...BIT*H...and i can say it like a zillion times..yeah...friday was a disaster....seriously..I never had that kind of outburst since second O....haiz...but this time it was worst....at a bus stop can..if only I wasn;t embarress..I would have given you a punch on your pathetic loser face...yeah..what the fuck..after all you have done since my first relationship...who you thinl you are...first ask the person to forget me...and to go to bed with you..asshole...now...you e-mail my latest date and saying what...O'you are the absolute package and yeah let's go out sometime...although you know fully well that I AM DATING THAT DAMN PERSON...You just can't stand it isnt it..that I kiss the person like crazy..that's why you threten to go off that day...If only i was high earlier I would have punch you loser face and kick your butt out of that fuckin club....I have been forgiving you flirtatiousness for so long thinking that it was just you till now....

U so pretend to act all innocent and saying I'm one of your best pal..well for what..to steal all my relationships??well look at your lame fucked up face...even my rabbit also don't want...no wonder so many people date you once and dump you the following day...I have no sympaty for you anymore....... Seriously just get out of my sight and don't you dare sms or call me nomore..go out there and get a life...even your neightbour also do'n want to talk to you....stupid ass... IT'S all because of you that I'm dumping the person....why?? cause you know all about this particular person and you have talked to ther person..call me shallow or whatever, but yeah that is to show how much i despise you.....ASS......

* Once I spit, I will not lick back*....... FUCK OFF................!

haha

2005-09-08T21:38:00.000-07:00

the previous entry was on the 11 ironies of my life..ya,...

The 11 ironies of my life..

2005-09-08T21:35:00.000-07:00

1) Half Indian but cant stand indian way of life...
2) half thai but cant spell certain thai words properly
3) Thai national but can sing s'pore national anthem and say the pledge by heart
4) Love dog but is currently keeping rabbit
5) Like outdoor activities but join indoor club that drain you psychologically rather than physically
6) Want to lose weight but constantly eating
7) Looking for long term relationship but flirting with more than one mate constantly
8) Like s peace and quiet but go clubbing like monthly
9) Want to be mature but try to catch powerpuff girls on cartoon network everyday
10) Want to have many close friends but don't dare to open up to many people
11) Finally, having all the weird friends that i can never imagine having ever... haiz....

2005-09-03T20:03:00.000-07:00

Fine!!Bern and May..fine...I will write nice entries...well actually there's not much thing to write except that I'm counting down to the end of A level...cant believe it...not studying much yet counting down...I'm definitely weird...Yest i was attack by the urrm...those horrible indian where they look like tamil tigers "poser" hanging out at bedok interchange looking at people walking pass and sing song to people...too free with their life i guess...one was only around like upper primary and anothe was like lower secondary...they look so young yet so evil....i bet you the older girl have tissue stuffing up her asset..giving it little space to breath...yuck...and what was she thinking singing and teasin ME ME..YES ME.. when im like sooo above her ok....haiz... anyway yeah...today i was so traumatise... when i was on the way to class with may, i accidently called her a bitch..oops..sorry may...I'm sexist..most girls are bitches...well...that's what i have come to realise...except..very very few...e.g: Bern and May, shehnaz, jinli, prem, hijanah and harj...and more ok..too lazy to type...aiyoh..ok lah except all my friends...haiz.... the curse of having too many friends...must lie to make sure they are not mad...haiz.. anyway yeah... and u know what's so interestin...I ate this really nice bakadeil today its like whoa...hahaha..hope my entry is nice..

wait..i also realise my RABBIT, SUSIE IS EVIL.....HE IS OUT TO GET ME... TURNING HIS CAGE UPSIDE DOWN... so that i will have to clean it like evry morning and that I will have to bring him out every night..so evil!!!!!!!!

evil rabbit attack...

2005-09-03T19:30:00.000-07:00

an evil rabbit up for adoption..anyone???interes ted party...beware..he just bitten off the telephone wire..and the neighbour's cat!!!Owner really depressed....

hehe

2005-09-01T21:29:00.000-07:00

hi hi.....how are u there...hahah...feel like sayin that...anyway have a nice day people...

announcement

2005-08-29T09:24:00.000-07:00

Hi hi...
Tired tired....tired tired....hahah...anyway Teachers day 05 is comin...wonder how my junior are goin to conduct the thing...still ponderin if i should go..haiz...stress...anyway been too tired to write lately so will write shorter and shorter ok...those who wants juicy gossips...urrm..call me or look for me in school when u get the chance ofcourse ok...hehehe

Depressed...

2005-08-28T02:17:00.000-07:00

Sick and Tired...Sick and Tired..can say it a million time...it's so drainin...exam and all....I really want to pour over my books....really do BUT.... I simply cant concentrate...simply can't....why I have no idea...many people are actually really studying...but me..look what I'm doing...but yeah..it;s just 3 more months..3 more months..to get away from here...to get away....yes...cant wait...future plans..unknown yet but yeah....who cares..just wanna get away....but till than...i will do my utmost best..yes..thats what I will do...haiz...

Hectic week!!!

2005-08-19T04:30:00.000-07:00

Hey hey peeps....its been a hectic week dont you agree..im so tired...and guess you all are too...been goin to school..comin home and repeatin the whole cycle again and again....haiz...things are changing..I feel it..people are asking me about it but yeah..happy that it's happening.anyway 2 more months to graduation and urrm...A level..donno whether wanna feel happy or sad...really...anyway 1 thought for us to ponder upon now..is how the council really turn out... After national day which to me was alil horrifying..expected it to be much more... the fact that teachers day really had the support of the TA ic...really remind me of last year where the comm had to learn on most stuff starting from scratch...haiz..memories.......lolz..anyway yeah it gonna be hell of another hectic week up ahead and have to do the best out of it...and im too lazy to type now..so yeah have a ice day..borin entry eh..but yeah

haha

2005-08-14T23:53:00.000-07:00

Hmmph..been a weird weekend..first I feel like eating thosai and than feel like going temple..yes....wanna be holy can!!anyway my weekend ONCE AGAIN WASTED..DIDNT DO MUCH STUDY,...O'DEAR...I'm goin to die..seriously..anyway went out today to serangoon road..the place was like infested by like all the best people of the world...lolz...anyway i went to temple with varun, marie and faizal..it was kinda weird cause faizal could not go in as he;s a muslim..so yeah...after prayin we went to new woodlands to eat THOSAI..yeh!!!!!so happy...so after that went walk alil and took bus home....anyway the best was yesterday where i went roaming with may after class...we ended up at royal sporting house where i saw this gorgeous shoe that cause 69.90..I want!!!!!butr have to wait till after As can!!!anyway may was so pisse with my can till she wanna slap me..lolz...after royal sporting house we went to MPH where we saw this sex book section where there were like advise on how many calories u can lost during sex and foreplay and it was like so funny....I was amazed to know that simply by putting deodorent for the ladies..u guys can lost 10 C.....so cool right..Also by nibbling yr partner's ears u can lost 55 C....yeah wait somemore....by trying to get a man erected..u can lost 220 C.....yea..so ladies...go work it..mwahahaha.....that was when I realise that it is the easiest way for may to lose her pounds..so i asked may to go nibble her brother's ears...lolz..it was so hilarious..she was so shocked that she nearly died.....but may seriously..go nibble ok...u still single right...do also nevermind...just use ur brother can./...or alternatively...u can nibble yr neighbour's dog or somtin...hahaha.....or yea.....yr doll..watever doll u have with ears...yeah so anyway hope that this facts will prove useful to you..gals out there...any more queries contact me ok....hehehe..ofcourse im no6t gonan be yr sample..no way!!!!BUT YEAH..ANYWAY class was wwird our teacher kept getting distracted,,wonder why....sure scared of wife case....but he's so big size...haiz..weak men..if i get married i will make sure all my wife do is just nod at whatever i say...hahaha...ok..ok tired already till than..ciaoz....

It's over

2005-08-09T18:49:00.000-07:00

yes the holiday is over..it's already wedneady..so le flashback on how my time was was spent..firstly...on monday after national day I went again to library this time..I was alone..without JINLi..she fell asleep...so yeah studied there till 7pm than went to bugis and actually have like mini food feast for ourselves....starting with nasi lemak and roti joh and ending with mudpie and iced moccha latte....mwahahahaha...after in which we went and watch bewitched...gosh i swear that the movie was really nice...I really do think nespaper critiques are dumb giving like bad rating for the movie....anyway yeah u guys better watch it....

Tuesday- Woke up at 10am...went to grandma place in woodlands....ate like 2 plates of rice and chicken curry..i really missed her chicken curry..mwahahahaha...after in which went to cousin place nearby and eat i don;t know what it is called and loads of ferrero roche (dont know how to spell) after in which went back to grandma's place and ate mee sian...hahahaha//anbd came home to gobble up walls ice cream..lolz....what a great day right....yeah and I also met up with a friend..who at 19 already complete his diploma and is working...O;dear..he's indian btw....from india...these people are damn smart I tell ya....

Wednesday...MUST STUDY I SWEAR......BUT WILL TRY!!!!!!

yeah anyway thank you for reading ok.... =)

My own best friend...

2005-08-07T11:51:00.000-07:00

Hectic sunday and monday...wait what hectic..I actually went to the library yesterday and u know do what....STUDY!!!!kavee actually studied and it was with Jinli...mwahahaha....kind of fun..and after studying we actually went to this sumo house or watever with the manager wearing his shirt the colour of SBS bus driver...and his workers in pizzahut red...but you know what...their food was fabulous...and cheap....gosh...but not filling ofcourse..all those who know me will be able to comprehend...hahaha...so after that went to get SUSHI....GOSH..really was wonderful...not forgetting mocha latte......damn was it a good sunday...not really cause after that went for a jog and realise my stamina had been ruined....was so sad.....so now must jog everyday to maintain stamina and improved it...alright let's move on....today the beginning has been damn irritating..I WOKE UP LATE...woke up at 7am..than took a cab to school...dunno why I did that..and yeah watch the concert. the concert brought back loads of memories.....and I'm sad to say, I expected much more...so kind of disappointed.and after that I came home..yea...dunno what to do so decided to come home...will go library soon i guess...and promise my granny that I will go see her today all the way in woodlands.....haiz....me and my busy hectic lifestyle...lolz...I'm glad Im now mostly alone..no stress less problems...lolz.....and more time to reflect upon myself and the future.....anyway social life pattern changing and the number of people that i will consider a friend is declining..mwahahahaa.....Also i have come to realise how the society around me is evolving in a negative way.Gosh! Today was at a bus stop when i saw a bunch of urrm...lower secondary boys running around yanking each other's private off....don;t know what's so fun about that!!!!!and when i was walking home..saw my pri 5 neighbout kissing with her urrm..equally young and retarded counterpart.....was so appalled cause when i was around their age.... all i did was to go to playground and play.....or to go library and borrow books abput scarecrow...hahaha those were the days.....anyway me gotta go now...have pizza waiting for me to eat ($2 pizza)...hahaha....happy holiday peeps.... muackz....

Charlie and I

2005-08-05T11:44:00.000-07:00

Yeh!!!!!I caught charlie and the chocolate factory yest night...the movie was kind of cute and cool....really enjoyed it...anyway it also sets me thinking that nothing is impossible...well..easy to say hard to do..lolz...anyway had a horrendous econs test yesterday and I'm kind of freaked out..as the questions seem easy enough and yet I cant do...guess I need to study harder.haiz..studying...brain have been kind of slow lately...wonder why....too much coffee??or the effect of last saturday after all...drinking alcohol will kill your braincell....sad eh...but true...OMG...the song freeak by george michael is damn nice...hahahaha...an inspiration to be gay....so cool..anyway mon is like national day celebration and it's also a friend birthday..im goin bankcrupt for sure...lolz...hmmph...i really feel like going to coffebean today to chill....probably will do that....thats partly because i got free voucher ofcourse...hahaha..anyway have a nice long weekend people..and bern u are the best...hahahahahahah

hmmph..

2005-08-03T01:25:00.000-07:00

Yay!!!!!!!!!!! ben gave us the 17th all a mug today and was so happy with the photos..that I can like say a million thank you...Kudos to bern..anyway, I lost my left contact today..believe it or not..ONE BLOODY DAY AND I LOST ONE SIDE... so pissed....hmmph..have yet to study fro econs test... as usual///too lazy.....goin for the movie later...with fad...after such a long time..yup...the island...so there goes my studying again...will have to actually start studying....was walking around the whole day with one eye being able to see..kind of pissed off..but yeah...this fri is gonna be hell...econs sucks..and haiz...anyway did my econ presentation today and it kinda sucked as i got the whole theory kind of wrong....cant believe it.....anyway I have to go get ready for the movie...and also kind of lazy to write..see ya....

Funny monday and tues...

2005-08-02T04:07:00.000-07:00

Haiz...my monday have definitely been weird...After deciding for like really long...I decided to get a contact lens instead..well i thought it would be easy but no..it was tough..both wearing it and taking it out....haiz...but yeah already got it so will have to bear with it...anyway, I would like to take this opportunity to thank Bern, Harj, Heeru, Prem and Marcus for helping me this morning with my contact and all....it really freaked me out and also helped me...lolz..Also..must thank WL for lending me money for the prom..although he wanted me to go..lolz...but anyway...thank you...Also, today was kind of funny....for lit class Ms G asked me to act as urrm..i forgot the name..an indian girl..so yah....anjoori or somtin like that...was kinda funny..lolz...and i had like a great breakfast cum lunch today.... NASI LEMAK WITH TWO EGGS...TOFU AND yeah....ikan billis....SO FATTENING.....anyway, just took out my contacts...and yeah PAINNNN...hmmph..i noticed that the cow wasnt in school today but was too irritated to ask indian maid...and yeah HIJANAH SAW ME IN THE LIB AND IGNORED ME....nevermind....mwahahaha..i also will ignore you......!!!!!went home with bern and elaine....not forgetting shehnaz and Jinli,....so funny...i heard a couple of wrong things from jinli mouth..kind of scary...lolz.....example..she called me anjoori and i was like yeah but i ate nasi lemak this mornin so not really...and she gave me this like..."uhh" look...and i was like u asked me if i'm hungry wat....lolz....anyway econs test in fri but not in the mood to study.....and I think I did badly for GP and Geog...as i really had no mood to do anythin today due to my eyes...lolz...anyway yeah thats all for now....will come back tomorrow...

PS: Bern sorry ok..too lazy wait next time i write....

Outing that went wrong...

2005-07-30T23:25:00.000-07:00

It was a bad night....bad bad night...didnt expect it to turn out that way..after all it has been really long since i actually go out and chill with my so called friends..i really thought that they changed..but no...they are still the same old selfish and irritating bunch of people....we started out fine..like some reunion thingie where faizal, hans (F's bf) and me met up and we head for esplanade to wait for her majesty marie and his highness khai to join us...I was a lil uncomfortable to go out with my friend and urrm....HIS BF...freaky...but hey they are normal enough....than again after her majesty and his royal highness arrive, we alol head to singapore river not forgetting stopping at 7-11 to get "some drinks" as suggested by marie...She took out like 5 bottles of e-33 and I was like whoa...im not drinkin....but than again she convinced me to drink a little and she drank 1 bottle...in which like 5 minutes after she finished, she suddenly got drunk..this is the comical part.how can someoen get drunk after their first bottle...so pathetic..and she started doing like really stupid things...like screaming and hugging hand and khai which made faizal really pissed....than again, thank god that I was sitting at a position where she can't possible hug me...hahah..and so we have like 3bottles left in which I was than made the scapegoat to finish it..and hmmpg..i wasnt really drunk after that just tipsy....so we all after in which couldnt take the nonsense that marie was doing and decided to all pretend to go home to make her go off...but to no avail....in the end hans got fed up and give some excuses to go home...and khai did similar thing...hence leaving the 3 of us... but the best part was, before they all left, marie decide to use one of her rash techniques to attract attention by jumping inside the fountain of one of the building with her handbag and all....She got like totally wet..with her hp and discman... so after in which we head for the club.....but even before we could enter the club, marie started asking faizal for money (as usual) and he being weak and all..give in... but only to show his frustration later by walking off...so me being in the middle run after both of them...and ended up faizal walked off to god knows where...and yeah i ended up going home and realise that my night has been ruined.hahaha,,thanks guys for ruining the only day that i am able to enjoy myself. hahaa i know it's a long entry..that might be because it's been really long since I last update my blog.so yeah...

Anyway enuf about yesterday night...school has been kind of funny lately after I stepped down from council..i feel like i'm free but the funny thing is..everytime the school mention like councillors this and councillors that, I am always thinking that they meant me and the 17th SC...lolz...alos i have like become kind of rebellious lately with my coloured socks sex bacnds, hp outside canteen and being totally talkative in class..mwahahahahahahahah..enjoying every minute of it...seriously...but i do miss the councillors though...and yeah went for some scholarship seminar yest and realise that it's really really really expensive to study in US with living expenses of about US$ 9000 to US$ 13000 annually and school term cost atleast like US$100000 for public uni...I think we all must be really loaded to be able to go there..lolz..anywya after that followed Chet to kinokuniya....(dunno why) and found some really nice book but didnt buy any..too lazy..and wanted to keep some money...and yeah how can I forget the mock exam. The mock exam was tough but fun..lolz...and i feel like eating mushroom swiss today dunno why....perhaps later or tomorrow..thinking of watching movie alone and yeah..just feel kind of wanting to chill and be alone today...lolz...will do that i guess....anyway yeah...I'm back alright people...so stop buggin me to update my blog....

PS: I have a photo link.that you all can see all the invest photos and SRJCians day photos so go take a look.... http://asia.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/kavee_trivivit/album?.dir=63f6&.src=ph&store=&prodid=&.done=http%3a//asia.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/kavee_trivivit/my_photos

enjoy ok...

Would you be happier to realsie that I'm crumbling?

2005-05-26T05:23:00.000-07:00

Haiz...

well after a long long time.. i do have the feeling that it is not right to be posting up such a sad entry but yeah...who cares... It's been once again another roller coaster ride for me. first of all, MY GOD DAMN RESULTS.....My results is really really shocking really gosh....How I wish it didnt have to turn out that way. Am i really that bad? well whatever alright. Besides after my break up like 3 months ago..i thought i have finally found someone again but guess what...NO! i'm not gonna love again ever. i can never understand women and never will... So what if friends after friends introduce me to this and that....still I'm really sick of it....also....i have this proverb that it's always for jme to stand by ALWAYS: " Once I SPIT I will not lick back"..yeah..what's the point..Anyway another thing that i have realised or that it suddenly had occured to me earlier..I realise that I'm really am alone on the inside..hahaha...i cant take it...or I'm glad for it..lolz..anyway, i guess I'm converting this blog into an emotional outlet for me....u guys can stick to it or you know stop reading..lolz..anyway have a nice day people...

thank you note

2005-04-22T07:29:00.000-07:00

Yo!Yo1..i know its been really long since i last log in and all...but yeah many things happen..many stages of my life passes by..new friendship developed..old friendship deterriorate.lolz..

Anyway the purpose of today's entry is that, it is dedicated to Bernadine and premani..lolz...by popular request..anyway Bern is this really really nice girl that I usually go to school with and sometime go home with...I will never forget her 1 hour bath time at shangrila during our preparation for grad ball 04...so funny and hilarious..anyway initially I have the feeling that she loath me but after sometime and after working with her for first o...She is really cool..lolz..anyway bern thank you for all the wonderful memories...

PREM.....the girl with the magic hair that no matter how many time u messed it up, it will still remain straight and neat....i think she is one of the most patient girl in council and yeah..she's growing..into someone better..c'mon prem..keep on growin..hehehe..anyway you had been one that have always been there for me...since day 1..( remember the college day)???thank you so much..

Yeah..thats all people..I just log on today to pay my tribute to these 2 people..lolz....

bORINZ..

2005-04-10T08:55:00.000-07:00

Hmmph...weird weekend really..time flies...It was just friday like a few hours ago..and now..ITS ALREADY SUNDAY NIGHT..DAMN PISSED..why cant weekend be longer so i can actrually rest properly..haiz..anyway yest went out with marie after really long time and yeah...it was fun..we went and watch the eye 10 and instead of bein a horror flick, it turned out to be a comedy..damn...so people out there...dont have to watch it ok..if you are not a fan of comedy..lolz..today went to visit my grandma and yeah..problems will never end..she and the maid were having this major fight again and I ended up as middle man..damn pissed...and guess where she stay..yeah...woodlands..so I have to like travel there..but thank god..i got a friend to follow me to woodlands...anyway yeah thats all summary of my weekend...I reaLLY HAVE SO LITTLE TIME FOR BLOG.. NOWADAYS..LOLZ...

borin day..

2005-04-05T05:35:00.000-07:00

Hmmph..have been startin my week weirdly..lol..gettin picked on once again for this week..so damn fed up..niway...u will never guessed how councillors will get picked by teachers for practically everything..lolz...and yeah i got picked on even more just because of the position thing...lolz..Some call it high expectation but for me I will say being a punchin bag for the administrative staffs of SRJC!!!!Well not only that, councillors are also punchin bags for the students...we are a bunch of committed people..(well most of us) who have to endure the complains of all the most rediculous things in the world..and never get credit for it...so yeah just a little insight..niway Hij volunteer to lend me this motivational book today that cost $27....O' and she gave me this stern warning that if i happen to crumpled any of the page, she will personally kill me....She IS SO SO SO DAMN HORRIBLE..Al so this is an appeal to all.....Hij and I are just friends and so guess you guys can stop your cheap thrill of trying to guess if we are together.. it's not goin to be worth your time considerin about it...anyway got geog test tomorrow..but have yet to thoroughly study..Im gettin lazier and lazier day by day...wonder why....niway I think that will be all for now... cause I'm really lazy..lolz..

Sickz and tiredz

2005-04-01T18:39:00.000-08:00

Hmmph..so long no updates..yup..true...have not been updatin..gettin so fed up and all..lolz..Yeh!!!finally second O is over..I once made a deal with someone that once second O is succesful, I have done my duty...and yeah..it was indeed succesful..My duty is done...BUT...people now say I have to stay on. Well if you ask me, I don't mind staying on really...after all the thing that I'm doing is passion that I have from my primary school..lolz...BUT...it's the people I'm doing it with...I'm kinda sick of them..really sick..when they laugh..it makes me wanna punch their faces..(not all of them of course)..After each ,meeting which makes no sense anymore....I just wanna go to their faces and scream and scream...and i asked.. ( U talked like you are someone who is superior, someone who is super perfect, flawless..whatever..)but you know what...I cant help it if im a good observant and yeah..ur flaws is more than what yr fellow peers actually have..lol..I started this conquest of mine with super commitment and passion and someone once said.. "with great power, comes great responsibility"... I got it for the second O..and now..I am trying trying real hard to get back...u ask me why? cause of my tag..cause of what it says...BUT...just to make u all realise..I'm doin it not out of passion anymore but out of hatred and cause of duty...Hmmph.besides..why should I be there when people dont need me...I have my own exco members gossipin bout me to others or shall I say the whole college..tellin people that they hate me and in turn their friends hate me too..well i use to go home with you but now i will avoid you at All cause..why? Cause u are one bloody snake...I think the worst choice the TAs make is... 1) Puttin u into exco, 2) Makin me into what I'm now..Besides...i also have people who tends to disappear during the preparation of my events..and act all busy and stressed up when the actual event is goin on and people have the idea that the person is doin alot..but only the first ic will know isnt it... well..I observed it for 3 events... National Day, Teachers Day and 2nd orientation....not forgettin first O...hmmph what shall i say about this kind of people...F*** OFF!!!Thats what i will say...and I cant believe they can actually sit down with me and preached about why am I disappearin...hahahahahah... "whateva"..To the rest of u well....what can I say...guess u are not leaders yourself..you all are just a mere followers..dont have leadership qualities in your own way.. (once again not all)...U just want people to lead you..well my question is... did people vote you all in to be led by the exco???So when people say we need you to do work than you do..but if they axctually keep quiet...u will also keep quiet..haiz....the next issue.. u all mention once during meeting...we are not happy whn the ex- councillors hang around our table...My question to you is... "When they hang around yr area u feel disgusted whatever..but when you need people to do work and can find noone...DIDNT YOU ASK THESE PEOPLE TO HELP YOU??????" I was wonderin who actually help to paste the ralley poster and also for your walk in emcee for second o....Whatever lah 17th whatever....U all are just one ungrateful council..really are.....i wanted to bring this up that day but before I could do so...I saw.. so many of u noddin yr head..im so disappointed... I will say nothin no more..u all can do whatever u all want..after all we the 17 are already known as THE WORST COUNCIL ever... anyway good job for acheivin this really good job..congratulation....

Also to clear some air...bout my last entry...it wasnt meant for u ok..prem......stop feelin so paranoid=)..But for the rest,,,it might be you...

Weird entry

2005-03-21T08:44:00.000-08:00

Hmmph...I am bein stretch to the near limit..but not yet to the max limit yet..lolz...besides findin the real reasons as to why I go to colege, I also trying to find what it takes to be a good VP. lolz..guess till now..although I have achieve atleast 1/4 of my goal as a VP but the 3/4 seem like a long way. The hardest thing to deal is with your memebers...Thank god I atleast have one or two moving with me. Enough of that. now the student part. I seem to lost interest to study and thats scary considerin my As is this yr..Chat with fad today and so happy...been like really long since I last chat with him and yeah it feels so old days again.. Goin to BKK on thurs night. cant wait lolz...The funnu thing is.. my sis ask me out to eat donut on my birthday. thats the common thing about us. we both love donuts, dogs and cats.hahahaha..Will go to my home church on my birthday. SO ALL THOSE PPL WHO SAY I HAVE BEEN A BAD CATHOLIC...SHUDZ UP! anyway trade phone with mum and yeah..although its funny lookin..I love it anyway..feel so grown up..lolz..

Mid year is comin up and ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!will start studyin like 2 days befor mid year...cant help it..too busy chasin after people in council for proposal..(lolz)..well tomorrow got econs..and wonder what mdm saadiah will do this time. It's weird cause although I dont like the college system..i seem to like my tutors...anyway i cant go on already..kind of driftin away and writin nonsense...gtg..ciao...

life's a bitch

2005-03-19T03:53:00.000-08:00

Hmmph...have been blog hoppin today...somtin that i hardly do nowadays... decided to not leave any taggin...The blogs that I went to are so weird...really weird...it mostly evolve around 2nd orientation and infact I dont know councillors...Hmph..as for me I guessed i have learn to just ignore all comments..just do my work and dont care if people are happy with me or not..It's happier that way..save me all the worries in the world.Besides, without politics, it makes me so peaceful..hahaha..it's not like I want to be in these sick politics but somehow I just seem to get involved always..it makes me wonder why sometime?is it because I'm really too nosy or somtin?or is it just the post thing that requires me to get interpersonal with people..It's scary isnt it...than i rather not have the post...but than again it's a bit silly to be saying it at this point of time considering 2 of the best TAs force me to stay on plus a whole loads of my "friends" ( I don't know which is true and which is fake). Infact I learn alot during the preparation for 2nd orientation. i realise that I have been too trusting and that there are so many snakes in council. besides this, I also realise that, you can never use the friends in JC EVER!!!although it doesnt apply to all the friends I have but... hmmph...guess Jc ppl are so shallow minded and just likes to use people. Well I was used as a transition between people who are looking for friends who they say can "understand" them. Give me a break!!!U keep on going around with ego like that and your theories of how friendship is and should be sucks......maybe I'm the blacksheep among SRJCians or infact to these whole JC system. I thought I found a true friend in some people but I was wrong. Absolutely wrong> But you know what..I quit it..I dont give it a damn. After my events, I realsie that I have been outcasted even further. but ofcourse there are some people that I should thank. kelvin for stickin by me..may for confidin in me and Alfred for bein such a good logist.My tip for survival in some council organise camp is, remain firm and neutral.Bitch when you have to....I did it..people hate me but i don't care.some people deserve it. Besides I'm pretty good at acting. There are quite a number of people that I absolutely hate in council seriously...from none to some..cool huh..just 1 and a half year..but I act like you guys are my close friends ever. You will have to be very alert to notice that i hate you or despise you. But the truth will come to light soon enough. But as long as I remain the vice president of the 17th SC.... You will not know...None of you shall know...I hate this group of people more and more everyday and there are also more addition to this group too....hahahaahahahahah...Ok enough of the crappy cca...

My life recently have been kind of weird..I seem to be travelling in some love capsules..hahahahah...although i told faizal that Im not in love..no way...I just broke up with 4 and a half yr relationship which to me I treasure alot and it hurts me alot.. but how could someone new just come in and intrude my heart just like that..weird..But AS LONG as year 2005 is concern..i will keep my heart as empty as possible. Hmmph went to geog seminar yest... we ( Chet, Wei Liang, Jesslyn, Natalie and me) went late for like 45 mins..freaked out.. and nearly died...but went in time and yeah ate like pigs during tea break..hahahah...their watever ball was great..lolz...besides that, was quite horriefied when during the forum one guy stood up and ask about the gay party in singapore...I was freaked but kind of admire him for being able to tell the public his belief and whatever he is....Hmmph...so proud..went and see son of mask in the threatre and whoa..that movie was so funny and cool..i nearly died laughin..the dog was so cute...heheheheh..and yeah the person i went to see the movie with was cute too..lolz..but yeah she is awfully quiet...and that is so not me...cause the best asset of me is my mouth..I can go on talkin and talkin..hahahaha....but as I was tellin faizal..i dont see us work out..no way..If I was to engage in another relationship..it will have to be forever...sound so hollywood..i know..but true...Hmmph goin Bkk on Thurs..cant wait...Will finally go to the church I was baptise in after like 4 years...yes my birth church..Im goin there on my birthday with my sis and nephew and niece...funny isnt it..Im like 20 yrs old this yr and goin out with my NEPHEW AND NIECE!!!!!probable i will be playing like them hahaha..anyway gotta go now...have to do some routine things...ciao...

its a wed mornin

2005-03-15T18:32:00.000-08:00

Hmmph..have been tryin to study for ages..but simply just cant put my mind down to it...and yeah have been on the comp for practically the whole day....My tag board is down..so sad..... If anyone knows how to correct it pls call me ok...Have a great night yest hangin out @ coffeebean claque quay and than go to Zam Zam...hahaha..it was great although i felt a lil..empty...sittin there lookin at someone new...I guess I just cant move on....but no matter hwat..Im never goin back..EVER!mAY BIRTHDAY WAS YEST AND i CANT believe she got an ipod shuffle...So happy for her...Went lunch with hij yest in BK..and we talked about the weird stuff ever...which is pretty traumatisin...still cant get it out of my head...

Hmph..I came up with a proposal of what I want for my birthday and i conclude that..i want a tattoo for my birthday and everyone was like objectin to it..[what's wrong in havin a tattoo?] I just wanted somtin to look cool hahahaha.....niway...just change my skin and think its pretty cool...except the music...but crap....ok..me really gtg now..will update later...ciao..